A/N: They say that most women desperately need a guy to love and to love them back... They would do anything for love. Even if their goals, reputation, and friendship are broken through other persons eyes, but this girl Mayura, and Mayura believes this myth... She has this situation that can really hurt her heart...In her situation her best friend Nia, loves this guy named Kiba, but at the same time Mayura loves Kiba, would she rather pick friendship or love? Is she able to love to this guy or not? Will Kiba ever know that her time is running out will he ever know that her friend has been crushing on him for so long already. Will Nia and Mayu's friendship would last.

Disclaimer: This story is kind of an AU and the characters are really OOC and there are OC characters here. I only pick some of the Naruto characters here and the others are really OOC and well... I am so sorry hope you don't mind and all... Hope you don't mind but just read cause' this is kind of my first fanfic and I hope you don't mind if you could just R&R thanks a lot... hope you enjoy reading. R&R okay...

WARNING: If you don't like sad endings this is kind of not a Happy ending type of story and I am so sorry again if I made the characters really OOC and there are many OC!!!!!

Read and Review okay... If you do you'll make me smile... bows Thank you I love you all mwah

For the last time I know I am persistent R&R

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Jealously Killed Love

Dear Diary:

My heart really aches especially today. I can't bare the pain I am enduring right now. I am indeed suffering from leukemia. At first it is just ordinary anemic and I thought that would just dissipate from my system but it really got worst. My parents knew about this but they haven't told me all about it, until now. Only now I knew... when I cut my self, and when i saw the blood I collapsed...

I am now in the hospital with him...

I can now hold him while I slowly die...

I can even breathe well...

I know my time has come to leave this cold hearted place to a nice place called heaven, but I don't want to leave... He still doesn't know how I feel about him and he... I don't know if he knew that... I loved him since we first met... In the library...

Inuzuka Kiba it has been so long since then...

So, so long ago...

Nia I missed her so much I only want her to be happy and yet she just...

No not her me I'm the problem to all of this... if I just told her that I loved him this won't happen and she would just be my friend... My very best friend... and yet I kept it to myself... Hid it all from her, then now I am suffering I had been an idiot to hide my feelings.

There's a lot of "what if..." in my mind "What I told her the truth?", "What if I never met him?" If I didn't, then I'd be happier...

He is all to me and no one can steal him from my arms... Day in and day night... I don't want to share him... I know it's selfish and it's pride, but I don't care and then again I have to because we are just friends and its not like we are already in a relationship... But Nia, Oh, sweet Nia... Are you happy to be in this situation? sigh Breaking our friendship just for a silly boy.

It all happened like this...

I only want to see him in my dreams.. I always dream of him, the way we walk hand by hand and the way he listened to me if I needed any help...

But when I woke up I was sad, it is because he was only a dream and I know that it would never ever happen to this real cold life. That's why every night I'm really happy cause' I'm going to meet him again.

I never thought I'd be going to say this but he never left my heart even if I told Nia so. I pretend that I don't like him anymore, but the truth is I still do and that will never change cause' he will always stay in my heart no matter how I try to deny it. I do still love him and that will never fade away.

I never told that to Nia... This was my first mistake...

June 12 - Introduction to the class

My name is Hayate Mayura. I am 15 years old. I am a transferred student in the school of Xi'an Jiao tong University. Now I am now here in Japan to study.

I am a very shy person at first but when you get to know me I am really a nice and understanding person…

I love to write some poetry, It all started in the 4th grade, I got inspired by my friend, and he is really a good poet…I am creative… I draw or paint anime if I get bored, and I am really good at it.

I always loved the books of Dan Brown, Nicholas Sparks, Nora Roberts, Cornelia Funk, and Sandra Brown. Don't know why but I find them really entertaining, and very fun to read. I quite don't know why but its hard for me to put down a book if I already started it.

I really love animals... Like: Pandas I think they are very cute creatures and I think they are the most lovable creatures God made, and Dogs I think that dogs are the cuddliest creature; there is something in them that makes you feel good, like if you hug them… They tend to make me smile.

I always want to protect those who I truly love like my friends and family even if it takes to kill I'll do it. I always want everyone to be happy I don't want them to be sad or crying that's why I always make them smile but letting them laugh…

They say I'm good in telling advices, then again if I am good at telling advices then why can't I solve my own problems?

My goal is to protect love ones from anybody who bids them harm, anyone who hurt them… Anyone... I failed once and I shall not fail again… ever...I don't want to loose one of them cause' they bring me joy to this world… it's like my reason for living in this heartless, cold world.

I don't know what's there in life that people love so much… I quite don’t know what my purpose to this world is… Everyday is just all the same...

Same procedure!! Same! Nada!...

1.You wake up

2.You go to the bathroom

3.You eat

4.You get dress

5.You go to school

6.You eat lunch

7.You study

8.You go home

9.You eat dinner

10.You sleep

Then you just... Repeat.

Again and again day by day... People never get bored with this... Again and again...

The introduction was quite alright. Diary, I kind of like this guy, but he is in the senior’s area... Inuzuka Kiba and for me he is the hottest senior here in the school but I thought that I'm the only one who thought of that... My best friend Nia thinks so too... My very own best friend... She loves him and she always told me about it and never let me forget it.

For three years she had been blabbing all about him and for three years my heart ache in pain. I too loved him; in fact it's more than four years, since we meet at the library. In fact we are kind of close and we are more than friends... Best friend too be exact. He helped me in finding the books I wanted to borrow and I helped him too. They always torment us that we like each other... Yah half of it is true, but I never let my feelings out. No one knew about it except me. I hope he also feel the same feelings I have for him for the last four years. Inuzuka Kiba why him? Why can't Nia just like another guy...? Uchiha Sasuke he is the most popular guy here. He's smart, hot, and sexy. Why not him? Why must it be Kiba?

As few days had passed me and Nia became really close not in fact that we had been friends for more than three years now we became like more than friends. Like we are one, like sisters in a happy family only we are not related. We hang out to the mall, go to the park and since we are neighbors we go home together and maybe sleep over to our house and theirs too... We are very happy when we are together.

June 18 - Nia's introduction part1

"Hey! Mayu! Over here I saved you a seat!!!"

Smiling Nia offered Mayura a seat...

"Hey! Thanks! I thought that I wouldn't get a seat today."

She smiled sweetly at Nia.

"You seem happy."

She said taking a spoonful of rice into her mouth.

"Yeah It's just that--" again with it "Oh you got perfect score again in the Chapter test you're so lucky! Always the brainiac in the class huh? You go Mayu!" She cut me off "You know what happen to me I saw--" pissed off "You saw him again and you felt like heaven when you saw him... He is like your guardian angel and it makes you love him even more" payback such a impolite person. I mean even if she is impolite to me I always accepted her the way she was and I always forgave her and forget about it. But payback first before that... as I always say it "Yeah I saw him again and it was like magic... I er... and he said hi to me! Tell I think that was me and you know what he stared at me like he wants to say something to me and I really felt good"

I just lay low and pretend I'm listening when she told me her stories, but I can't. I don't want to listen but I can hear it she's doing it again.

"I love him, Mayu and I wish that you could help me... I always have this dream that you would help me out in times like this, especially when you knew that person all too well. I wish you could fulfill that dream for me"

She smiled at me, a sweet tender smile that I thought she would never show or give to me... But my heart is so... It hurts... I can't take the pain... Please d-don't say it... Stop... Please! No! I don't want to... D-Don't, too late...

"Hey Nia! You want me to introduce him to you?"

Why!? Did I tell her that!? I just want her to stop. I want her to be happy even if it takes...

"Really?!!"

To hurt me.

"Yeah, Sure. Why not?! I knew him anyway."

Gave her a sweet smile then she was speechless... I was happy... For her... She rose from her seat... What was she going to do?... She then suddenly hugged me...

"Thank you! Oh thank you! You don't know how this means to me"

I just smiled and hugged her back

"That is what friends are for. Right?"

Even if I am sad and ready to burst out in tears in the inside I kept my word. Friendship is more than to me than love. She is my best friend. Nia, Kayoko Nia.

Since I'll introduce him to her, well better yet forget him. It has been years and our love didn't even move to the second level it remains to the first...

Friendship, maybe I am better off not with him but with someone else...

As they say fantasies never come true unless you are living in a dream, which I'm not...

I think he only thinks of me as a... Friend... Not a lover...

June 25 - Nia's introduction part2

The day has finally come...

Its now or never. I tried to gather all my courage, no, not try, but I had gather all my courage so I can talk to him and introduce him to her. Maybe you think that I am a big dumb nitwit with no brain. For Gods sake! no I am carefully picking up my choices and yet, I am not quite sure about it and I doubt about it and... I am sure about it now... I will leave him and go on with my life and then friendship will remain no one gets hurt except me...

As I introduce them together...

It's like love at first sight they began dating, going to the mall together and more making each other happy...

And, and It hurts me I became jealous about it... But I never showed it... My friends told me that I've become pale and not eating properly...

"I pity her..."

"She's not herself lately, do you know why?"

"No one knows"

"You know when this start, have you seen her she's been alone lately... And her book is her only companion...”

"Cause she never talks to anyone of us... It all began when her best friend started dating Inuzuka Kiba"

"You mean the guy she's been crushing on for the last 3 years?

"Uh huh"

"God... I really pity her good thing it did not happen to us'

"Yeah"

And there I was all alone and then I have decided to... My classmates were all talking to me, teachers too. My teacher told my parent ll about it and then advised us to take the school council. I never talk to such person.

My classmates... I know are worried about me... The truth is I never was alone they'll come with me to talk, read with me, eat with me. But I never told them and yet they noticed how I feel... When they mention about Nia and Kiba I tried not to cry all about it... One day I never could help it I cried in Hinata's arms... And there I let them knew how I felt about it and more.

"Let it go Mayu... There are lots of boys out there for you"

"Like Lee yuck! You've got to be kidding Sakura Lee? My Chouji is so much better"

"Like anyone asked you about it! Ino-pig"

"Shut up forehead girl"

It made me laugh... A little at least I know that everyone cared about me...

"D-don't worry Mayu-chan there are a lot o-of boys want to g-go out with you...”

"Thanks Hinata sniff but I don't like them"

"M-Maybe you'll just let him go Mayu-chan; if you love him then you must set him free smiles"

Let it go or no not to let go but... "M-Maybe you'll just let him go Mayu-chan, if you love him then you must set him free” No, No I can't!!! I can smell the blood... It's so warm... My mom came in and saw me that was the last thing I remembered...

I was dying and this is what I think is my last breath...

I can't bare to see him and Nia together they seem so... In love...My mom knew about him and she never told him or gave him a hint of clue that I like-- No. Love him, which was a big favor to my mom from me and I like it...

Until now... I want her to break it, crunch it into pieces; I want her to shatter it all... Now I want him to know, how I really feel...

And she did...

She informed him that I was in the hospital and came right away and told him what happened and told him that I love him... Thank you mom and thank you for your full support Diary you really do listen well... advance good bye to you... End---

July 7

And now here I am with him...

Holding my last breath...

Not dying in what I had done but dying cause of leukemia I also got the attack and the doctor said that I wouldn't make it...

Finally I... I, I can hold him...

Even if in just few more min. He stokes my hair and even if I am in great pain I endure it and smiled. He smiled back and I was happy...

"You know what kiba?" I said.

He look preety much consern and willing to know what it is. But he already knows.

"I know," he said "I love you too" and he kissed, me deeply I was really happy.

My first and last kiss, as he and I kissed I began to tremble not cause' I am scared cause I can't breath anymore I got to face this I can do it I don't want to leave him...

I can't breathe longer.

"Whats the matter? Mayu? Mayu?"

I can hear his voice, his face slowly, slowly fading away.

I held his hand and smiled as I knew I was slowly dying

"G-Good bye K-Kiba... I'll a-always b-be on y-yor side t-to p-protect y-you" Then he hugged me saying repeatedly the phrase

"Mayu! Don’t die!"

I can hear the echo in his voice so loud with mix of sadness and sorrow...

I know he was only force to go out with Nia and I was the one he truly loves...

Why didn't I figured that out sooner...

I can see it now...

The gateway to heaven...

I can hear the echo in his voice repeating the phrase again... echoing in the room..

"Mayu! Mayu! Please don't die. God Mayu, I love you please, please. No!!! Mayu!!! Mayu!!!" It was already too late I have left my body and it is already empty. A single tear fell out from my dead cheek symbolizing the pain and sorrow that I face.

Good bye Kiba I'll always protect you from harm...

I saw him hugging my dead body... Crying... But little did he know I was hugging him also not in the flesh but in spirit. I Love you Kiba...Not as a friend, but as a Lover.. Was all I can say... I wish he could only hear it...

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